Monday Blues

See? I promised a photo, so here it is.

I'm 23 weeks along, my belly is 53", no shocking weight gain besides the 12 lbs I've gained overall. There was an unanswered question about the insulin and the effect on the baby. I asked a neonatologist what were the effects of the insulin shots on the baby. He explained that the insulin does not cross the placenta, but that glucose does. So if the baby gets exposed to high levels of glucose (blood sugar), that can cause congenital heart defects and possibly other problems, but the insulin never reaches the baby. So I can take 100 units of insulin a day and it doesn't hurt the baby, but having high sugar levels in my blood can do a lot of damage.

I went to the Ob Dr. last Monday. It was literally a "how are you feeling, good, see you in 2 weeks" appointment. I had a few questions to ask, including questions about the delivery, which I will have to now wait to get answered. Also, I usually have to take a whole day off to go to my appointments because they are in downtown DC, and with parking and traffic and the distance to my job which is further south in VA, and that I usually combine appointments with my endocrinologist. So I felt it was a waste. Besides, I brought it up to my endo Dr. that I had found my sugar levels a tad high in the past week. His suggestion was to cut down on rice, increase dose, and more exercise. Hmmpf! Another 5-minute appt. As for my back pain, the Ob Dr. said it might just be the pelvis stretching. !!! I don't think so buddy. I guess I just felt it was a waste of time. And now I have to go again in 2 weeks. It's hard to keep up with these appointments and their frequency!

I have good news. Adal starts teaching at GWU on Wednesday! Although I have to admit that it is bittersweet for me. I will miss him at home. I will miss his meals made with love for me, and having someone there for all the service calls, like the cable guy and phone company. And him being available to do so many things in the house like paint, and do miscellaneous things. He will now have his own agenda, his own schedule, and I won't be his #1 priority any more. I feel like I'm losing a part of him I was so used to. But how can I be so selfish? He's been waiting for this for FOUR years now. I know he's counting down the hours, minutes, seconds. And I am SO proud of him. I hope he knows that.

I have not felt the baby, but the Dr. said that was normal. I may not feel it for several more weeks. I have seen her move on the ultrasound, so I know everything's OK.

Adal and I are again living like normal people. We now have TV channels and internet at home, after a 2-3 month hiatus. I almost got used to not being connected to the world and I was enjoying it. Hmm. Weird. Especially for me, because I like to know what's going on in the world, and I like my technology. I think I liked the silence and the time to read my Time from cover to cover, and Adal and I talking over dinner like normal people used to do, not in front of the TV. And the freedom to go to bed early, without feeling like I had to finish the show I was watching. And really, who cares who wins on American Idol, or if some people think they can dance? Aren't there more important things going on? Oh geez, I've become old.